Semester Three, Week Ten

No surprise, I didn't do very well on this weeks exam. (I've noticed a pattern; one week I'm rocking nursing school, the next I'm failing. Odd.)

I went to speak to my instructor about my grade (seeking clarification) and entered the nursing faculty suite, where all students are welcome, as instructors have an open door policy.

Searching for one of my two instructors, I heard something most disappointing: My instructors were dissing my cohort. I stood there, uncertain, as they mocked us, and then I found my instructors office.

I asked to see my exam, and as she went to retrieve it, the mockery continued. Apparently, we're not a very bright group, and don't even try that hard when we have group exams together (Untruthful, but hey.)

My instructor informed the lively group of the presence of a student, so they closed the office door to continue the gossip session, but really, the damage was done. I heard it. I'll never view them the same again. Ugh. Disappointing. Where's the professionalism they preach 24/7?!

I had a really good clinical week. My two patients were absolutely wonderful. I not only learned a ton, but felt like I was really understanding what it means to be a nurse. I helped the PICC nurse while she placed a PICC, and then the next day had the opportunity to go to interventional radiology for re-insertion of said line. It almost makes the hours of prep work worth it. ;)

Monday's upcoming cardiac exam is reportedly insanely difficult. I don't know why, but I have a peace about it. I've been talking to God a lot lately about school and my potential failure. Please know I do not want to fail, but should that be the case, I guess....I guess that means that there are other plans that I have yet to know about, and I will try, try again (But please don't let that be the case.)

I've been studying harder for this exam than all the other ones and finally fully understand the blood flow of the heart and the location of the major coronary arteries. I could discuss CAD, ACS, MI, UA, NSTEMI's and STEMI's at length....but who wants to hear that except for those who are working their butts off to comprehend this material.

I've been thinking a lot lately that my Creator, the One who created the heart can certainly assist me in understanding His perfect, magnificent creation. The heart is so amazing; more than we know, and I trust that the Lord will see fit to enable me with the knowledge I need to know.

I don't know what the future holds, but I know Who holds the future.